Heros Wanted

Hmmmm. . .

2006-02-18T15:25:00.000-06:00

. . . yeah. . . Maybe some day I'll post my own "songs", if you wanna call them that, here. . . maybe. . . 5624789566 cool points to all the random people who have found this thing and actually posted in it. Yes, cool points. . . I give them out to cool people. . . well. . . people I think are cool. Maybe I'll turn this into a real journal too. . . ideas ideas and oh yeah ideas. . .

~~Roxy

Sophomore Slump Or Comeback Of The Year By Fall Out Boy

2006-02-18T15:18:00.000-06:00

Are we growing up or just going down
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

We're the therapists pumping through your speakers
Delivering just what you need
We're well-read and poised
We're the best boys
We're the chemists who've found the formula
To make your heart swell and burst
No matter what they say, don't believe a word

'Cause I'll keep singing this lie if you'll keep believing it
I'll keep singing this lie
I'll keep singing this lie
Are we growing up or just going down
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

We're traveled like gypsies
Only with worse luck and far less gold
We're the kids you used to love
But then we grew old
We're the lifers here til the bitter end
Condemned from the start
Ashamed of the way
The songs and the words own the beating of our hearts

'Cause I'll keep singing this lie I'll keep singing this lie

Are we growing up or just going down
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light
There's a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up
And another around to help us bend your trust
I've got sunset in my veins
And I need to take a pill to make this town feel okay

The best part of "Believe" is the "Lie"
I hope you sing along and you steal a line
I need to keep you like this in my mind
So give in or just give up

The best part of "Believe" is the "Lie"
I hope you sing along and you steal a line
I need to keep you like this in my mind
So give in or just give up

Are we growing up or just going down
Are we growing up or just going down
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

Back For real this time. . .

2006-02-18T15:14:00.000-06:00

I've been dealing with stuff in my life i haven't updated this thing in a long time, I just happened to be playing some music and ran across a song I posted here I long time go. . . Anyway, I miss this thing so since I'm back I'm gonna post one song for now and then come back (promise) and put some more up at another time. . . in a week. . .

~~Rox

Well . . .

2005-05-28T20:04:00.000-05:00

SO I wasn't back as soon as I thought I would be. . . but I am now, so I'll put a song on here tomorrow. . . if anyone reads this.

Back

2005-01-30T01:20:00.000-06:00

I've been kicked off of my computer. but I will be back soon. Thanks sober-punk. I didn't even think anyone read this. Be back soon. Love ya all, ~~ Tha Cheshire

Iris by Goo Goo Dolls

2004-09-22T17:25:00.000-05:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
and sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am

The Last Kiss by A.F.I

2004-09-22T16:31:00.000-05:00

hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that you'll see.
all by myself, i'm alone in such poor company.
the deeper i think, the deeper i seem to sink.
i can't stop the insects that are feeding,
pull the needles from beneath my skin.

i broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every piece.
you'll love the eyes. have they always shone so vacantly?
the more i show the less you'll want to know.
i can't stop the insects that are feeding ,
pull the needles from beneath my skin.

now i'm on display, i am becoming.
hurt myself today. it's all for you
do you like, do you like what i'm becoming?
cut myself today, it's all for you.

i part the night, flashing, approaching as i watch you flee.
pushed through your panes. seems i've landed quite uncomfortably,
but as i pass through souls of broken glass,
i can't stop the insects that are feeding,
pull the needles from beneath my skin.

now i'm on display, i am becoming.
hurt myself today. it's all for you
do you like, do you like what i'm becoming?
cut myself today, it's all for you.

please don't ask me what i think, trust me, you don't want to know.
please don't ask me to open up. trust me. trust me. 'cause i can't.

Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

2004-09-13T17:05:00.001-05:00

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But, when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

(chorus)
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
Make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away
And break away

(chorus)
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
Make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
I won't forget all the ones that I love
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, break away

(chorus 2)

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Break away
Break away

Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard

2004-09-13T17:05:00.000-05:00

There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you thats here with me
Its everywhere I go its everything I see
When I sleep I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that your here tonight
That your here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I rememeber the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Well be together for one more night somewhere somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

Always by Saliva

2004-09-13T17:01:00.000-05:00

hear, a voice say "Don't be so blind"
It's telling me all these things, that you would probably hide
Am I, your one and only desire
Am I the reason you breathe, or am I the reason you cry

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

Done with you, done with you, done with you, done with you,done with you

I feel, like you don't want me around
I guess I'll pack all my things, I guess I'll see you around
Its all, been bottled up until now
As I walk out your door, all I can hear is the sound of

Always... always... always... always... always... always...
I just can't live without you

I love you, I hate you, I can’t get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you

I wrapped my head around your heart
Why would you tear my world apart?

Always... always... always... always...

I see, the blood all over your hands
Does it make you feel, more like a man?
Was it all, just a part of your plan
The pistol's shaking in my hands and all I hear is the sound

I love you, I hate you, I can't get around you
I breathe you, I taste you, I can’t live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I guess that I'm out the door and now I'm done with you

I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I love you, I hate you, I can't live without you
I just can't take anymore, this life of solitude
I pick myself off the floor and now I'm done with you

Always... always... always...

1985 by Bowling For Soup

2004-09-13T16:58:00.000-05:00

Woohoo
Woohoo

Debbie just hit the wall
She never had it all
One Prozac a day
Husbands a CPA
Her dreams went out the door
When she turned twenty four
Only been with one man
What happen to her plan?

She was gonna be an actress
She was gonna be a star
She was gonna shake her ass
On the hood of white snake’s car
Her yellow SUV is now the enemy
Looks at her average life
And nothing has been alright

Springstein, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she’s uncool
But she still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985

Woohoo
(1985)
Woohoo

She's seen all the classics
She knows every line
Breakfast Club, Pretty in Pink
Even Saint Elmo's Fire
She rocked out to wham
Not a big Limp Biscuit fan
Thought she’d get a hand
On a member of Duran Duran

Where’s the mini-skirt made of snake skin
And who’s the other guy singing in Van Halen
When did reality become T.V.
What ever happen to sitcoms, game shows
(on the radio there was)

Springstein, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she’s uncool
But she still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985

Woohoo

She hates time make it stop
When did Motley Crew become classic rock?
And when did Ozzy become an actor?
Please make this stop
Stop!
And bring back

Springstein, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she’s uncool
But she still preoccupied
With 1985

Springstein, Madonna
Way before Nirvana
There was U2 and Blondie
And music still on MTV
Her two kids in high school
They tell her that she’s uncool
But she still preoccupied
With 19, 19, 1985

Lead Me by Krystal

2004-09-13T16:54:00.000-05:00

Oh no no no no no

Lately something’s come over me
I once was blind, oh but now i see
A power flowing through my soul
Giving me control
Making me feel whole

[chorus]

Lead me, all through the days i go
I need you all through my life i know

All my life i felt that i
Would rise above and reach the sky
All i needed was a helping hand
And there you were
For me once again

[chorus]

(i need you in my life)
(i need you )

Now i can thank you
For showing the way
Keeping me strong
Every day
All because of you
I can do anything
Lead me home
Lead me home

Please don’t leave me
Don’t go away
Cause i need you today in my life

[chorus 2x]

Cause i need you today in my . . .

Goodbye by Krystal

2004-09-13T16:53:00.000-05:00

Goodbye
You came into my life
Like something straight out of the sky
Gave me what i thought was love
But ended up in disguise

Those words you told me
They made me open up my heart
But now i'm torn apart

[chorus]
Seen your eyes
Heard your lies
Now it's over
Say byebye
Made me cry
Can't describe my pain
That's why i'm saying goodbye

Sometimes i still see your lips
Telling me your sweet nothings
But, then you turn right around
And tell someone else the sweet same thing

Those words (those words) you told me
They made me open up my heart
But now i'm torn apart

[chorus x 2]

Na na na
Na na na
Now it's over baby, byebye
Na na na na na

Say byebye

Those words (those words ) you told me
They made me open my heart
But now i'm torn all apart
[chorus x 2]
Say byebye [x 5]

Religion by Krystal

2004-09-13T16:52:00.000-05:00

There's nothing wrong
With tradition
But tell me where it says
Not to follow our hearts
That's why so many
Of us are so confused
And will never live
Up to your rules

[chorus:]
My religion doesn't hate
It'll never turn you away
It always understands
My religion won't condemn
Always lends a healing hand
It's love
My religion's love

All it takes is to be willing
To sacrifice for
Someone who is in need
Then we can begin
To heal again
And love will
Sweep the land

[repeat chorus]

My religion
My religion
Love
My, my religion
My religion
It's love

That's why so many
Of us are so confused
And will never live
Up to your rules

[repeat chorus twice]

My religion's love

Supergirl by Krystal

2004-09-13T16:32:00.000-05:00

Sometimes i have dreams
I picture myself flying
Above the clouds
High in the sky
Conquering the world
With my magic piano
Never being scared
But then i realise

[chorus:]
I'm supergirl
And i'm here
To save the world
And i wanna know
Who's gonna save me?
I'm supergirl
And i'm here to
Save the world
And i wanna know
Why i feel so alone

Seems like a dream
But there's one thing missing
Nobody's here with me
(here with me)
To share in all that
I've been given
I need someone
That's strong enough for me

[repeat chorus]

Hey ooh

I need someone
I won't stop till
I find the one
Who will start
Belonging in my life
I need someone
I won't stop till
I find the one
Who will start
Belonging in my life

[repeat chorus]

I'm supergirl
And i'm here to
Save the world
And i wanna know
Who's gonna save me
I'm supergirl
And i'm here to
Save the world
And i wanna know
Why i feel so alone

I'm supergirl
I wanna know
Who's gonna save me
I'm supergirl
And i'm here to
Save the world

The Great Houdini by New Found Glory

2004-09-13T16:26:00.000-05:00

All dressed up and nowhere to go
I think i'm taking this trip alone
30 seconds til i pass
The questions you will never ask
Your regrets will haunt you
You know i never had to

But i'm saving myself from you

And did you notice anything
The changes made
Now it's safe to say
You will never change your ways

I went to your house but you weren't at home
I'm sure you coveniently shut off your phone
I don't think that i'll ever be
The person that you want of me
When all that i can think about
It's you i have to figure out

But i'm saving myself from you

And did you notice anything
The changes made
Now it's safe to say
You will never change your ways

You would give up anything
To prove your point
There's nothing left to say
You will never change your ways

But i'm saving myself from you
Yeah i'm saving myself from you

All dressed up and nowhere to go
I think i'm taking this trip alone

And did you notice anything
The changes made
Now it's safe to say
You will never change your ways

You would give up anything
To prove your point
There's nothing left to say
You will never change your ways

Forget My Name by New Found Glory

2004-09-13T16:25:00.000-05:00

Tell all my friends I'm dead,
I'm leaving you, this time it's for good.
Tell all my friends that I'm dead,
It won't be long before you forget...my name

Can you tell that I'm losing myself?
I think I'm trying too hard to
Let it show, to let you know
Don't trace your footsteps back to me

Cause I've been gone for a long time
Waiting on the sidelines
Hoping for a chance to play
Well I thought I would never
Leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say...

Tell all my friends I'm dead,
I'm leaving you, this time it's for good.
Tell all my friends that I'm dead,
It won't be long before you forget...my name

Can you tell that I dont know myself?
I need someone to remind me.
To let it go, please let me know
Dont trace your footsteps back to me

Cause I've been gone for a long time
Waiting on the sidelines
Hoping for a chance to play
Well I thuoght I would never leave anything behind
I also never thought I'd say...

Tell all my friends I'm dead,
I'm leaving you, this time it's for good.
Tell all my friends that I'm dead,
It won't be long before you forget my name...

And if I had the chance (had the chance)
to do it all again, I wouldnt expect anything less.
And if I had the chance (had the chance)
to do it all again,
I wouldn't expect...
I wouldn't expect anything less

Tell all my friends I'm dead,
I'm leaving you, this time its for good.
Tell all my friends that I'm dead,
It won't be long before you forget my name...
Forget my name

Head On Collision by New Found Glory

2004-09-13T16:24:00.000-05:00

I've been waiting for a good day
I've been holding back long enough
I've been hurting to tell you some thing:
It's not the falling of the temperature
That's making all our bones run cold
It's the breeze you make
The presence felt when you're around me

And it feels like im at an all-time low

Slightly bruised and broken
From our head on collision
I've never seen this side of you
Another tragic case of feeling
Bruised and broken
From our head on collision
I've never seen this side of you
Another tragic case
And I'm still

Waiting for a good day
I think I've held this long enough
I think it's safe to tell you some things
It's not just what you say to people
And it's not the way you look at me
It's the way you present yourself
For all your worst critics to see

And it feels like I'm at an all-time low

Slightly bruised and broken
From our head on collision
I've never seen this side of you
Another tragic case of feeling
Bruised and broken
From our head on collision
I've never seen this side of you
Another tragic case

Then you were gone
You were gone...
All this time you just didn't know it yet
You were gone...
All this time you just didn't know it yet
You were gone...

And it feels like I'm at an all-time low

Slightly bruised and broken
From our head on collision
I've never seen this side of you
Another tragic case of feeling
Bruised and broken
From our head on collision
I've never seen this side of you
Another tragic case

Another tragic case of feeling
Bruised and broken
Another tragic case and I've been
Still waiting for a good day

Something I Call Personality by New Found Glory

2004-09-13T16:22:00.000-05:00

Before you jump down my throat
I'd like to present you with
Something I call personality
Word travels fast when you're on the road
I'd like to think what I have is real

Sort this out on your own time
Sort this out on your own time

(hell yeah)

Before you jump to conclusions
About all the friends I have
Just remember they were born that way
Word travels fast when her name's involved
I'd like to think what I have is real

Sort this out on your own time
Come on and sort this out(sort this out) on your own time
Sort this out on your own time(sort this out)
Come on and sort this out (sort this out) on your own time

No matter how happy you are you'll always want more
No matter how stupid I get you'll always want more

Sort this out on your own time
Come on and sort this out (sort this out) on your own time
Sort this out on your own time
Come on and sort this out (sort this out) on your own time

My Friends Over You by New Found Glory

2004-09-13T16:21:00.000-05:00

I’m drunk off your kiss
For another night in a row
This is becoming too routine for me
But I didn't mean to lead you on
And it’s all right to pretend
That we still talk
It’s just for show, isn’t it?
It’s my fault that it fell apart

Just maybe
you need this
and I didn’t
Mean to lead you on

You were everything I wanted
but I just can't
finish what I've started.
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
My friends over you

Please tell me everything,
That you think that I should know
About all the plans you made
When I was no where to be found.
And it’s all right to forget
That we still talk
It’s just for fun, isn’t it?
It’s my fault that it fell apart

Just maybe
You need this
and I didn’t
Mean to
lead you on

You were everything I wanted
but I just can't finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
My friends over you

Just maybe you need this
You need this…
And I didn’t
Mean to lead you on

You were everything I wanted
but I just can't
finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over…

You were everything I wanted
But I just can't
finish what I've started
There’s no room left here on my back
It was damaged long ago
Though you swear that you are true
I still pick my friends over you
My friends over you

Understatement by New Found Glory

2004-09-13T16:20:00.000-05:00

I'm sick of smiling
And so is my jaw
Can't you see my front is crumbling down?
I'm sick of being someone I'm not
Please get me out of this slump
I'm sick of clapping
When I know I can do it better for myself
I'm sick of waiting
Sick of all these words that will never matter

I wire these nerves together
Hoping for a chance to think on time
And I'm tracing over your letter
To see if your intentions are as good as mine

But you're getting worse
I swear it
It's hard to prove you're an understatement
You're getting worse and I know
That you'll be calling, calling, calling me again

I'm done with everything
That had to do with you
Don't worry your pictures are already burned
I'm done with new friends
Don't sell yourself short
You'll lose it in the end

I'll wire these nerves together
Hoping for a chance to think on time
And I'm tracing over your letter
To see if your intentions are as good as mine

But you're getting worse
I swear it
It's hard to prove you're an understatement
But you're getting worse and I know
That you'll be calling, calling, calling me again

I can't help how I feel
No I can't help how I feel

But you're getting worse
I swear it
It's hard to prove you're an understatement
You're getting worse and I know
You'll be calling, calling, calling me again

Calling me again
Calling me again

But you're getting worse
I swear it
It's hard to prove you're an understatement
You're getting worse and I know
You'll be calling, calling, calling me again

Amphetamines by Eve 6

2004-09-13T16:17:00.000-05:00

Amphetamines and jellybeans
She was pretty in her teens
Waiting for the month of come what May
I smelled you on my shirt today
Of course the hardest part is letting go
But you've got to or you know
You'll end up waiting by the

Phone me once in a while
Let me know you're alright
Tell you again that I'm fine
Then we go about our separate lives

Was it nasty scheme or lazy dreams
I left you cold two blankets deep
This is the last song I'll send your way
I smelled you on my shirt today
Of course the hardest part is letting go
But you've got to or you know
You'll end up waiting by the

Phone me once in a while
Let me know you're alright
Tell you again that I'm fine
Then we go about our separate lives

Phone me tell me that you're waiting
By the phone for me to phone you
Once in a while (once in a while, once in a while)
Then we go about our separate

Phone me once in a while
Let me know you're alright
Tell you again that I'm fine
Then we go about our separate

Phone me once in a while
Let me know you're alright
Tell you again that I'm fine
Then we go about our separate lives (our separate lives, then we go about our
separate lives)

Promise by Eve 6

2004-09-13T16:13:00.000-05:00

Sleeping through the evening singing dreams inside my head
I'm heading out I've got some ins
Who say they care and they just might
I run away with you if things don't go as planned
Planning big could be a gamble I've already rolled the dice
I spit, stutter stuff and clutter worries in my worried corner
Maladjusted, just, untrusted, rusted,
Sometimes brilliant busted thoughts
Think I'll stay for a while I'm intrigued
And I'm red as a newborn white as a corpse

I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to try not to let you down

I am elated I am all smiles and dated
In my man bites dog town with a Spanish name
I am all bone I am two toned red as a newborn white as a corpse

I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to try not to let you down

Why you gotta keep the fan on high when it's cold outside
Just want to let you know that I'm still a fan, get it?
Everybody wants charm and a smile and a promise
I promise not to try

I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind
I promise not to mind if you go your way and I go mine
I promise not to lie if I'm looking you straight in the eye
I promise not to try not to not to not to leave

(Promise not to try)
Not to leave
(Promise not to try)
Not to not to leave
(Promise not to try)
I won't leave
I won't leave

Thank you by The Calling

2004-09-13T16:11:00.000-05:00

Look around, the writing's on the wall
Don't you think we're all feeling crazed
In a world, where nothing's as it seems
Paved with broken dreams, I found truth
Well My God, I should know you're right
I should know it's right to say I thank you for my days

CHORUS
Come around and see the other side
Stepping stones, away from the limelight
Come around and breathe in piece of mind
And for it all, I thank you
I thank you

Sit down, lose yourself in thought,
Then you might find out it's all we've got
Take a chance, the future's in your hands
Make it what you can before your time has reached the end

CHORUS

Come around and see the other side
Stepping stones, away from the limelight
Come around and breathe in piece of mind
And for it all, you you'll make it - on your own
Yeah, you're free...
Stepping stones, away from the limelight
Come around, and breathe in piece of mind
And for it all I thank you

I thank you(x3)

Stockholm Syndrome by Blink-182

2004-09-13T16:09:00.000-05:00

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)
I'm so lost
I'm barely here
I wish I could explain myself
But words escape me
It's too late
To save me
You're too late
You're too late

You're cold with disappointment
While I'm drowning in the next room
The last contagious victim of this plague between us
I'm sick with apprehension
I'm crippled from exhaustion
And I dread the moment when you finally come to kill me

This is the first (thing I remember)
Now it's the last (thing left on my mind)
Afraid of the dark (do you hear me whisper)
An empty heart (replaced with paranoia)
Where do we go (life's temporary)
After we're gone (like new years resolutions)
Why is this hard (do you recognize me)
I know I'm wrong (but I can't help believing)

Hello by Evanescence

2004-09-13T16:07:00.000-05:00

Playground school bell rings again
Rainclouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing
Hello
I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to
Hello

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello
I'm the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello
I'm still here, all that's left of yesterday

Tourniquet by Evanescence

2004-09-13T16:06:00.000-05:00

I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
(So much more)
I lay dying
And I'm pouring
Crimson regret, and betrayal

I'm dying
Praying
Bleeding
Screaming

Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost

My God, my Tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my Tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side
Or will you forget me

I'm dying
Praying
Bleeding
Screaming

Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost

My God, my Tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my Tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Return to me salvation

I long to die

My God, my Tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my Tourniquet
Return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
Tourniquet, my suicide

Return to me salvation
Return to me salvation

Everybody's Fool by Evanescence

2004-09-13T15:57:00.000-05:00

Perfect by nature
Icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that
Never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me
You know you've got everybody fooled

Look, here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she
Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

Without the mask where will you hide
Can't find yourself lost in your lie

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

A Call For Blood by Hatebreed

2004-09-10T17:31:00.000-05:00

Your reign of terror is coming to an end
And all your victims' pain will be avenged
Taker of innocence, I want your demise
Tear you apart for the unspeakable things you tried to hide

I fucking hate you
Every bone in my body will ache
`Till I destroy everything you love
And fill your life with their pain

Ten long fucking years
I waited to erase all the memories
And you can't fucking stop me
My vengeance is finally born
Ten long fucking years
Your reign of terror is coming to an end
And I have no mercy for your soul
Your blood is on my hands

A call for blood
For what you've done
No tolerance for what you've done
A call for blood
For what you've done
No tolerance for what you've done

All their anguish, all their pain
All their nightmares, all their misery
It's all coming back to haunt you
Your time is up and you've no where to hide

I fucking hate you
Every bone in my body will ache
`Till I destroy everything you love
The only cure for your sickness lies within your grave

Ten long fucking years
I waited to erase all the memories
And you can't fucking stop me
I hope you burn in Hell
Ten long fucking years
Your reign of terror is coming to an end
And I have no mercy for your soul
Your blood is on my hands

A call for blood
For what you've done
No tolerance for what you've done
A call for blood
For what you've done
No fucking tolerance

Let the blood spill
Vengeance is born

Grey Matter by Finch

2004-09-09T16:09:00.000-05:00

Bite the tongue to live with what you've done
It's so good
It's so good
Lie to myself while I lie with myself
It's Monday and it's raining till
Sunday in the sun
It's so good, but...

Would it be so bad if you were to pretend that you were so happy?
Keep it to yourself
Don't let the secret go
If you were so willing, but...

Let's pray for this suicide
And all these pictures falling down around me
I've surrounded myself with all I have inside

Would I bite my tongue and live with what you've done?
Just continue sleeping?
Selfishly consumed with everything you've rot
There's nothing I can do, but...

Let's pray for this suicide
And all these pictures falling down
One wish full, step to the side
And please just let me know

Are you happy? I'll decide.
These stories are so old, how they match your eyes.
Are you happy? I'll decide.
These stories are so old, how they match your eyes.
Are you happy? I'll decide.
These stories are so old, how they match your eyes.
But...

Let's pray for the suicide
And all these pictures falling down
One wish full, step to the side
And pick these pictures from the ground that surround me

Everything Ends by Slipknot

2004-09-09T15:28:00.001-05:00

You are wrong, fucked and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,
This is the end of everything
YOU ARE THE END OF EVERYTHING

Shallow skin, I can paint with pain
I mark the trails on my arms with your disdain
Everyday it's the same - I LOVE, YOU HATE
But I guess I don't care anymore...
Fix my problems with the blade
While my eyes turn from blue to gray
God, the worst thing happened to me today
But I guess I don't care anymore

You are wrong, fucked and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,
This is the end of everything
You are the end of EVERYTHING

My flaws are the only thing left that's pure
Can't really live, can't really endure
Everything I see reminds me of her
Man I wish I didn't care anymore
The more I touch, the less I feel
I'm lying to myself that it's not real
Why is everybody making such a big deal?
I'm never gonna care anymore

You are wrong, fucked and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

You are wrong, fucked and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up
And found my whole life was a lie,
This is the end of EVERYTHING
You are the end of EVERYTHING

What the hell am I doing?
Is there anyone left in my life?
What the was I thinking?
Anybody want to tell me I'm fine?
Where the heck am I going?
Do I even need a reason to hide?
I am only betrayed
I am only conditioned to DIE!

You are wrong, fucked and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything
I haven't slept since I woke up and
Found my whole life was a lie,
This is the end of everything
You are the end of everything

You are wrong fucked and overrated
I think I'm gonna be sick and it's your fault
This is the end of everything
You are the end of EVERYTHING
I haven't slept since I found out
My whole life was a LIE!
This is the end of EVERYTHING
YOU ARE THE END OF EVERYTHING
YOU ARE THE END OF EVERYTHING

Everything Ends by Slipknot

2004-09-09T15:28:00.000-05:00

Tell That Mick He Just Made My List Of Things To Do by Fall Out Boy

2004-09-08T21:57:00.000-05:00

light that smoke yeah one for giving up on me
and one just cause they'll kill you sooner than my expectations
to my favorite liar, to my favorite scar:
'i could have died with you'
i hope you choke on those words, that kiss, that bottle-i confess
ash ask yourself out on the insides,
I swore i loved you but i lied
let's play this game called 'when you catch fire'
i wouldnt piss to put you out
stop burning bridges and drive off of them
so i can forget about you

so bury me in memory
his smile's your rope
wrap it tight around your throat

on the drive home
joke about the kid you used to see
and his jealousy
breaking hearts has never looked so cool
as when you wrap your car around a tree
your makeup looks great next to his teeth

Seventy Times Seven by Brand New

2004-09-08T21:50:00.000-05:00

Back in school they never taught us
what we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
or someone breakin your heart
-Twelve years I've held it all together,
but a night like this is beggin to pull me apart.
I played it quiet left you deep in conversation
I felt uncool and hung out around the kitchen
I remember I kept thinking
that I know you never would
And now I know I want to kill you
like only a best friend could

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to..

As if it happening wasn't enough
I gotta go and write a song
just to remind myself how bad it sucked.
Ignore the sun, covers over my head
Wrote a message on my pillow that says
"Jesse, stay asleep in bed"
Don't apologize - I hope you choke and die
Search your shelf for something which to hang yourself
They say you need to pray
if you want to go to heaven
But they don't tell you what to say
when your whole life has gone to Hell

Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to..
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to..

So is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you cna think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield

Is that what you call tact?
You're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
So let's end this call and end this conversation
And is that what you call a getaway?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed
when you say "best friends" means friends forever

Is that what you call a getaway?!?
Tell me what you got away with
Cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish
I've seen more guts in eleven-year-old kids
Have another drink and drive yourself home
I hope there's ice on all the roads
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt
and again when your head goes through the windshield!

(is that what you call a getaway?)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(tell me what you got away with)
Everyone's caught on to..
(cause ive seen more spine in jellyfish)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and ive seen more guts in 11 year old kids)
Everyone's caught on to..
(have another drink and drive yourself home)
Everyone's caught on to..
(i hope theres ice on all the roads)
Everyone's caught on to..
(and you can think of me, when you forget your seatbelt)
Everyone's caught on to..
(and again when your head goes through the winshield!)
Everyone's caught on to..

(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to..
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to..
(I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
(and I can't let you let me down again)
Everyone's caught on to..

187 by Senses Fail

2004-09-08T21:42:00.000-05:00

It's so nice sitting very still
In a room where no one else can feel
The pain that breaks my heart each day
I'm not okay
Sunlight shining through my window
Lets me know that I'm still alive
But why did I ever let you inside my heart
I'm such a fool
And paint my face, in shades of blood and gray
And take a seat right next to me
But I should have known that you were a killer
But now I'm dead

A gaping hole shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tounge to end my life
But if you're blowing at the fires you light your strife

You'll never know
Oh no (2x)

The hardest thing about dying is
Knowing you'll never see the light of day

A gaping hole shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold
I tried so fuckin hard but I cant fit your mold

The hardest thing about dying is
Knowing you'll never see the light of day (2x)

You ripped my heart out
You tore my eyes out
Now you're gonna pay

I'll stab you one time
I'll eat your heart out
So you feel my pain

Don't you know that
I always see you
In all in my dreams

I wanna kill you
I wanna kill you
Now I'm insane (3x)

Invent The Truth By Diecast

2004-09-07T16:57:00.000-05:00

How could you lie straight to my face.
All trust that we had is gone.
If only you would have told me.
The truth that i deserve deserve, deserve.
I tried so hard to believe what you said to me.
Even though I knew it would exploit how I felt.
With your dishonesty your ripped out my heart.
I was betrayed and hurt left in the dark.
I felt so betrayed. I felt beyond repair.
I felt so weakened and in despair.
Now you try to lie some more to cover it.
I want no part of this or you.
Never again will you lie to me.
Invent the truth soemone else can see.
Now that we're apart I see how much you needed me.
Do not look to me for support in anything.
You should have thought ahead before you tried to lie to me.
Now I hope you rot in hell for eternity.
I felt so betrayed. I felt beyond repair.
I felt so weakened and in despair.
Now you try to lie some more to help you cover it.
I want no part of this or you.
YOU CANNOT BREAK ME.
Now that your all alone I rejoice.
You deserve more but this will suffice.
I move on with my life to leave you.
Memories fade away so FUCK YOU.
I live for tomorrow-true love for myself.
For myself! Never again will you lie to me.
Invent the truth soemone else can see

What To Do

2004-09-05T18:38:00.000-05:00

I have decided to make this my Song Journal. Meaning that this is where I'm going to post any song that seems to fit my life, gets stuck in my head, or I just plain like it. Most likely the first two. It would have to be first, usaully that's the only stuff that gets stuck in my head. Fill free to tell your thoughts on any of the songs I post. Or tell me about songs you like that have something to do with that song meaning, band. . . so on and so forth. . .